Why does it always happen ? The one person you gave your soul to … Your love .. Every ounce of effort you made …
They break you down , mistreat you .. You leave . Nearly a year on and he decides he wants to come back . His been with someone else which obv didn’t work out … Realising life with other people isn’t what it’s cracked up to be.
The horrible part of it all is that I’ve not been with anyone since him … I still love him .. I still miss him but we can never be together after the things he done . I can’t forgive and forget . I don’t want to love him forever but I know I will … You don’t ever fall out of love with your first love. I feel pain and anger again when I thought I was over it all and okay . I was wrong … I’m still not ok . It breaks my heart to hear him say his sorry , that he would do anything to have me back again and I believe him . But it’s not good enough …. You can’t relive the past and you can’t get back what was lost or torn apart .
I have to keep him out of my life when it’s the one thing I still want . For my own sake … Or I’ll never have a life again . I’m being haunted